Sometimes you get tired of waiting. Tired of trying. There’s an area of my life that seems to be taking forever to find complete answers to. Saw the fog on my way home and felt compelled to go grab my camera. Haven’t shot for a while. It’s dreary, but there’s a beauty in the bleakness.
In these moments of deadness there is a certain temptation to slip into despair. Days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months, months turn into years. And you're still (seemingly) in the same place. Has God even heard a word I've uttered? Or worse- does He even care? My questions usually lead to prayer, which lead to hearing something back. His gentleness quells my frustration, and leads me back to a place of peace and trust. And ultimately, I am led back to faith. Even though I don't see- I will hold on- and believe.
He doesn't shelter us from wrestling. He doesn't save us from struggles. It is in the still, dead moments that the magic actually happens. When the landscape of our life looks completely barren and unchanging, it is then that He is stirring. His work happens so slowly (or so it seems) that we often don't recognize it. I think he doesn't answer our cries to speed things up because that is when He is doing His most glorious work in us.
Is there an area in your life that feels like God has turned a deaf ear to? A relational challenge, a financial loss, or sickness? Tell Him your feelings on the matter. Be completely honest with Him. Ask Him what He's up to, and ask Him to give you a glimpse of what He's doing behind the scenes. You may be pleasantly surprised by what He has to say.
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